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Well, today was just... wonderful. After being lured into a false sense of security, thinking that being alive again was actually quite pleasant, there came today.

With dogs.

And having to explain to Lan Zhan why he was afraid of dogs.

And nearly losing his nephew to a hellscape of a man-eating tomb, a fate almost insulting in how bizarre it is.

And running into Jiang Cheng (who has definitely, entirely not forgiven him).

And questioning Nie Huaisang - there was something wrong with that conversation, he is sure of it, but just can't put his finger on what is wrong.

And sure he saved his nephew from a curse, now he has to deal with it. Even though it should be fairly straightforward to deal with, Lan Zhan has become completely and unreasonably overprotective.

Honestly.

But he complains volubly at Lan Zhan's attention, fretting at being made to hold still and be cared for. It's easier. It's immensely easier than thinking about the many ways he's been told today that there is no place for him in Yunmeng Jiang. That maybe, there never should have been. That maybe, everyone's life in Lotus Pier would have been immensely better if not for Wei Wuxian intruding where he should not have been.

And maybe.... maybe he agrees.

So he sits, and complains, and endures fussing, and drinks. And all the while, he longs for the open road, for simple pleasures and simple problems.